Two events have happened today that make me realise that I cannot continue with certain associations..
The first is with Google Blogger. An entire post, two hours work, has disappeared from Blogger, and I don’t see any way to retrieve it.
Oh well, too bad. I’ve moved here to Word Press and that’s the end of my postings on Google.
The other realisation is that a close personal relationship is also gone. Lost. Damaged beyond repair. There is no understanding, no way of making the modules talk together. Like software, the modules are incompatible. They cannot communicate. Black is white, white is black. Hands outstretched, poles apart, no common ground, incompatible code.
I don’t think there is any possibility of restoration and I don’t feel like going through the pain and sheer grind of trying.
Too bad. Not interested. I’ve moved this to the outer and I’m moving on.
In the past 20 years I’ve developed a hard, impervious outer shell. No-one gets through unless I allow it. I have closed the gate, locked and bolted it and that’s it. I control who enters and I shove people who hurt me outside.
I simply no longer care. I am moving on to the rest of my life and I simply have no feelings any more for people who hurt me. End of story. I honestly don’t care. I have learnt the hard way to be this way. Do not get close to people, do not let people get close to me. Especially females. Not a chance.
Ah well, luckily I have lots of new things to do and I’ve made some terrific new friends recently, and rekindled some old friendships. That’s all I need. I am confident of my integrity. That’s all I need.
So if you don’t hear from me, that’s it. Don’t call me. I won’t call you.